Missing u

the thing i miss most about you is your company, going to the movies, dinner, chicago. I miss the time we spent together. Inshallah one day we will both find ourself

what happens when you realize the thing you feared most has come true. I am truly alone now, I pushed and I pushed him away. Why didn't I give it another chance. I miss him a lot I wish he could hold me and cuddle me make me feel better. Its to late now I'm all alone now no one to share this life with.

what happens when you realize your being sucked into the same whole you just crawled out of. I was in a horrible relationship for 3 years and finally took a breathe without him and now here again he has entered my thoughts. i find myslef calling him for useless reasons again why do i do this to myself i cant run i see him everyday what should i do. what is there left to do. I am so lost and confused and scared