today I went out to lunch with my friend and she asked about us and I almost started crying I guess a part of me never wanted it to be over. Not much I can do about that now I emailed him and apologized I am not sure what I wanted in return. Lets hope this seperation is eased I hope his parents arrive soon so that he will become distracted. although he is probably not thinking about me anyway whenever we took a break he always moved on so fast I was always the one left holding on to our last memory together. It hard to move on when your stuck in the past. time to move forward and put the past in a box.

im watching this pakistani drama and the guy reminds me of Kashif he goes back home with his wife and instead of telling them that she is his wife she becomes his friend. what a loser it made me so mad. Oh well there is no point in thinking about this now. For some reason I can't stop thinking about him whenever I have free time hes on my mind I remember all the great times we had together its hard to remember the fights and all the reasons we split up.