my heart yearns to hate you, I wish I could rip your every memory out of my soul but I don't for the fear that nothing would be left. You have crushed me as a person, your happiness only brings me sadness. Your face only brings me tears. How can you smile and laugh while I suffer in pain, was all your words lies, I would not be surprised. So easily you manipulated the world around you to gain benefit not once did you think I have a heart or that I am a living breathing individual. I loved you with all my heart, giving you my whole heart and soul keeping nothing for myself. What did I get in return, my heart in a bag broken into a million pieces. Why me what did I ever do to anyone, I never hurt anyone's feelings, I never gossiped, I never talked trash about someone, I always tried to be just and fair. Maybe somewhere in the past I have been unfaithful and now destiny is being unfaithful with me. In the past 4 years I may have cried for 2 whole years everyday from all the pain and suffering you put me through but in the end here I am again weeping when I see your picture hoping that I will catch a glimpse of you on the highway. I destroyed myself so U could created the girl of your dreams in my empty and tattered body. In the end I lost myself, u and everything I took pride in for 18 years before I met you.