heartbreak

frustration, anger, guilt, hurt these are all the feelings he makes me feel, everyday now i need something to make me stronger something to show me that I will be ok without him. He couldn't even say it to my face whats wrong with him? honestly, this was too low yet still I wait for him why what did I do to deserve this from anyone. He is a heartless bag of rocks partially its my fault that I let someone have this much control over me, I let someone manipulate me and take advantage of my feelings, my love, my kindness all of this stuff is my fault had I stayed true to myself things would have never gone this way. whats the point of life right now whats the point of death, dying wont fix the pain, I am tired of games im tired of life, its too much now, i dont know what to do.