recovery

what does it take to recover from a tragedy? Is there a process for each individual tragedy or is there an over all 10 step process? I am trying ever so gently to recover from this painful and heartfelt break up. Like with all painful recoveries it takes time and on cold days your scars hurt. I pray for only one thing that when I move on into the future my past doesn't hold me back. I love him has to now become I loved him, my heart is not ready for such a great transition yet my brain has made a decision my heart must compromise with. I will try to remember to keep it one day at a time. For a while I tried to blame him, thinking he emotionally abused me but it was myself all along. I needed attention and lots of it, maybe it was too much for him to handle. I don't know no one can say why or how now. Although secretly in my heart I need and pray for his company once again I know that it can never be so and although it is only an arms reach away I should steer clear of "pick me ups" If it hadn't been for this blog all my feelings would stay bottled up and I would burst like champagne out of a shaken bottle, in one burst on the poor innocent soul who touched me. Life must move on time never stops for anyone so why should I let the past prevent me from moving into my present and later on into my future.