Unfortunately the more you try to run from the past the faster it catches up to you. I tried to forget old times and move on but I keep getting pulled back into this bad romance. What should I do to occupy myself so much time with him and now nothing? I feel lost, and betrayed. At first it was fun being single again meeting people, making new friends, but its enough now I want stability I want security. I don't think I will ever get that again. I should take a positive outlook though as they say its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. I can think of a million reasons why I left but none of them seem to make me feel any better.