today is not that bad

So finally a friday I am so excited and I got out of work earlier than usual. In a moment of weakness I texted him last night and as I was hitting the send button in my heart I wanted him to pick up and say hes outside but instead he was sleeping as always here I am sleepless becoming a major insomniac and he is sleeping like a baby. I am seriously obsessed this can in no possible way be healthy. I really hope that I can focus on school just finish it and move on with my life. I feel alone here like I have lost my best friend my confidant even without trying to I feel like I should have at least stayed close but then we were never good at drawing lines. One thing would lead to another and then another.